I am constantly being punished for the right and the wrong that I do
My happiness does not come as any expense to anyone but myself
Yet whenever I turn around, this curse that one might call a gift plauges me day in and out.
Time and again I've tried to give back this gift/ curse only to bestow more evil upon my head.
I curse the day mere human eyes could decieve what tresure the spirit itself holds
maybe one day we can look past our own selfish desires and start to fulfil that one purpose
the life long journey which has taken centuries to realize and centuries to figure out and were still waitng on te one spark that will cause an end to this system of things
Yet we all just wonder will we be ready?
Of course not, everyone is livivng on day at a time not wanting to have faith with works yet wanting a reward for all the faith that they have. Faith with which lies only in their mind, only to which they feel time is availaible for
these things only appear when you read them as I think them, or are they really my thoughts?could they be another being trying to reach as many as possible, to save as many as possible?
this gift/curse plauges me day in and out,
giving me peace in my dreams, then the wages of my sins come to haunt me from time to time
so I sleep in fear of remembering what shall occur to me.
i'm not just another soul with which his spiit has breath into,
I am another teacher to which whose who want to learn shall find me and others and the truth that we speak
I claim no religion, no loyalty to one group
I believe in answers to all things,
I believe in the truth, to which few have decided to search for.
and yet here you are still reading thirsty for the knwledge you know is out there
the knowledge only I and those like me can give you
this is not my story, this is not my book
this is just our future
end of introduction
My ovewheming fear is taking over me,
my fear of being alone, trapped in a life filled with loneliness.
I play these games hoping that I'll be satisfied with that point of human compaionship,
yet each encounter is like giving a man dying of thirst salt water.
My desperate need for an intimate relationship grows,
getting in the way of my dreams of surviving, finding my own way
I can plant happiness in another garden yet my soil, somehow is poisoned, unable to fill the void in my heart.
Yet even as I write these words my soul cannot help but to search , however hopeless, for the one who shall lead me from my fear
I don't call a guy my big brother unless he say we like family or she my little sister and that only happen once. But wen I don't like a guy or I don't want him to get the wrong idea that i'm attracted t him I just tell him none of that oh we just friends or big brother crap cause I know I would hate it if a dude I wanted would come out wit that crap. But I can only speak for mysef I don't know how other females hande they situation. even if a guy is protective like a big broter would be, I would be like he my best friend....until he stated claiming me as a little sister or part of the family.
knowing me I got the greens the mac n 4cheese and the stuffing...the gravy and the hot sauce some butter bisquit and hot water corn bread. who made the turkey this year???
just the thought of being with you make me
want to run naked through a field of wildflowers.
you make my heart wanna jump out my chest
and run into your hands and spend all eternity.
the thought of your hands on my body
leaves me in a kind of daze
im not sure just what i am, im kind of crazed,
cause i crave your lips
they lick my thighs as I caress you with my eyes
I cant get enough
why you chose me I dont know till this day
but i'm happy you saw in me what i've been
searching for all my life
you give me what I need in life
i live for your love
now I just have to make you love me
make you live for me
make you see me
notice who I am is for what you are
Why do yall avoid the good niggro's??
Now that shyt ^^ happens everyday!! Why not just start being true to yourselves and get with dude??
As soon as I find one I try damn hard to keep him close....they always seem to be in love or with someone else. All my male friends are the good ones just never good for me to get with. I'm waiting on the one to make me smile and not have me wondering is it me they see or whatever else a negro see's when he with a female he don't really care for.
Oh my.... No one has really said anything about these thoughts about being with the same sex....I wonder.
Im curious about who is really comfortable about admiting something so "serious" as homsexuality. :lol:
Ok we all have them but who will admit it? :smt039 I'm not talking about a cross your mind thought I mean really thought about it...not to the point where you wanted to "try homosexuality" but you just were someplace thinking about it.
" Hit it Off'
We meet at a college game with some friends, we talked and hung out that weekend and we found out we had alot in common and our views on some things in life were preety much the same.
We been chatting on and offline since then....
Oh, Ok. DO NOT.....I repeat...DO NOT go ANY further until he's finished with this lady he's with now. Even when he is finished with her....go SLOW...and I mean, SLOOOOW.
Especially if his current situation is kinda rough. Let him have his little healing time. Men need it too, whether we wanna admit it or not.
I totally agree wit Kool... You wouldn't want to mess up what could be a good thing by rushing head first into a situation without thingking about it. Even more so because he already has a girl. He may or may not be unhappy who knows. But now you need to stay in that friend mode which I would suggest is best. Even after he finished like Kool said take it slow. If its a good thing one day it will be a good thing the next. There should be no rush. Other wise you could just be caught up in the waves of lust....
well my nana always said if we don't be careful we gon allow man to rule us rather than God...... 
Now that shyt ^^ happens everyday!! Why not just start being true to yourselves and get with dude??
